不能做你以前能做的事. Right now 我走得最慢. 我一直走得很快. 人们总是告诉我，“慢下来. You walk too fast."
对我来说，不这么做很难. 这很难接受. I don't know if I'll ever be as fast as I used to be. The thing that calms me down is knowing that I'm still able to walk.
我以前喜欢爬楼梯. 我是一个非常活跃的人. If I saw an elevator or a staircase, I would take the stairs because I saw a challenge. 我喜欢逼迫自己.
I get exhausted now. Walking, as an amputee, I'm burning twice as many calories as regular people, 因为你锻炼了更多的肌肉.
It's difficult. 你必须有良好的耐力. 这就是很多截肢者放弃的原因. It's not easy.
What did it feel like when you were able to take your first steps?
To be honest, the time I took my first steps, I didn't think much about it. 我朋友米歇尔拍了下来. Once I saw the video, I started crying like a little baby.
这次事故因祸得福. Yes, I did lose a quarter of my body, but I have peace right now. 我是一个更坚强的人. I will have my occasional breakdown and cry, but I'll get back up. 这是一段奇妙的旅程. 你对自己了解了很多.
我记得有一次我去找. Weinberg, I was in a wheelchair, and he saw me and said, "God bless you. You're going to walk."
I was like, "Whoa, this guy doesn't know anything about me, and he's already telling me that."
That's one thing it's taught me: You have to be compassionate. 我是一个更有同情心的人. 事故发生前，我非常以自我为中心. 我做了自己的事，只担心自己. Now it's, "No, you've got to think about other people and help people out."
Accepting my limitations, being a better person, loving who I am. I'm a gay man. 以前从没接受过，但现在，这就是我. 我已经受够了.
What's the hardest thing to do in your daily routine that used to be easy?
站起来:在椅子上进出或站起来. That's why I’m focused on having a really strong upper body, 因为你不知道这有多有用.
That's one thing I tell amputees: Work on your upper-body strength because it will really help you.
Despite all the challenges, you've talked about how, overall, you're happier.
I tell people it's like going through heaven and hell at the same time. 我现在是个更好的人，更快乐的人. Before, I was addicted to sleeping pills because I was so stressed out.
现在，我想睡就睡. I used to drink just two cups of coffee and I was all jittery for the rest of the day. Now, I could drink a cup of coffee at 8 o'clock at night and be stress free and calm.
Why is that?
因为我很冷静，没有压力. Though I don't recommend losing your legs to lower your blood pressure!
我已经学会了把消极情绪从我的生活中排除. 保留好的，摆脱坏的. 这就是帮助我走到现在的东西. You don't have to be a brain surgeon to figure that out. Too bad I didn't do it before my accident, but it's never too late.
Can you talk to me about the phantom pain (a pain sensation from a body part that’s gone)?
这对截肢者来说是件大事. With me, it was exactly one month after my amputation. I would feel my legs. 我可以准确地告诉你我的脚在哪里. I would sit up from my bed at the hospital and feel my limbs constantly just hanging down.
随着时间的推移，它变得模糊了. You can feel your feet, but you can't tell where they're at. 有时情况很糟糕. 它变得如此糟糕，以至于我无法入睡. It was hard.
Right now, I do feel it, and it's a constant tingling. 感觉就像你的脚睡着了. It's nothing that's going to keep me from doing my things. I block it out.
Falling. 当孩子学会走路时，他们没有恐惧. 他们不会想掉下去. As an adult, you get up and you're already thinking, I'm going to fall. You feel unstable.
我一直在独自行走. My physical therapist says, "Keep your mind distracted. 不要想着走路. 你越想越难.她告诉我，“倒着数几个月。."
Liberating. 感觉这些腿真的是我的. 走路有点尴尬，但我还是走了. As I walked, some random guy came up to me and said, "That is awesome!他让我的脸上露出了灿烂的笑容. 知道自己能走路，真是太棒了.
我得到了那种真实的感觉. 我不认为他们是关心他人的人. 我现在视他们为家人. 我们是直呼其名的.
I've said from day one this is a blessing in disguise. 也许一两年以后 I'll look back and say, "It's the best thing that's happened to me."
这并不容易，但你会变得更坚强. 你会发现谁是你真正的朋友和家人. 你要学会真正爱自己.
I'll walk and have a random person that's never met me just say, "God bless you." To have somebody just come up and say that you, that's a powerful thing.
或者有人会过来跟我说, "You inspire me to move because I see what you're going through; you have the guts to come do what you have to do to work out.“很高兴知道人们看到了这一点.
但我不是超人. 我不是什么特别的人. 我只是一个想走路的人, 但很高兴知道你的努力, your hard work, is paying off.
I can go to sleep at night and pat myself on the back and say, "You did a hell of a job today."